"It's funny how money changes situations."
As of 6/7/05, I no longer work at The Firm. That makes me gainfully unemployed. Well not unemployed too much; I still temp here and there to keep the mortgage paid. I really don't want anything too binding right now. After working 15 hour days for the past year, the vacation is welcome. Oh, yeah, unemployment rocks too.
There's a reason I don't have too many friends. Frankly people aint shit. Lemme splain.
What I have experienced these past couple of weeks really opened my eyes to the nature of humans. I no longer have the means or desire to extend myself to people who once depended on me regularly for support when their shit was real raggedy and fucked up: emotional, financial or otherwise. Of course I haven't received the same courtesy. People treat you like shit when you don't have a job. I'm not pressed to get one either. I'm chillin as is and still paying the bills. If I can work this right, I plan to go to school full time for a year to graduate a lot sooner than I originally planned. Right after I deliver this third and final child, I'll be on my way.
I'm trying to maintain my composure, however, folks is on the last piece of nerve I have left. Once again I have people trying to tell me what's best for me, when they wouldn't have a smidgen of an idea what to do if they were in any of my situations. Help is one thing but unwarrented help is down right annoying. And quite misplaced. Don't offer to help me then help me with shit I don't need help with. Technically, that isn't helping.
I can't live my life to make other people comfortable. I do what I do when I feel like it. That's how it's going to be. What this has taught me is to be careful of the people I chose to over extend my assistance to. It's not likely they'll appreciate it.
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