"It's funny how money changes situations."

As of 6/7/05, I no longer work at The Firm. That makes me gainfully unemployed. Well not unemployed too much; I still temp here and there to keep the mortgage paid. I really don't want anything too binding right now. After working 15 hour days for the past year, the vacation is welcome. Oh, yeah, unemployment rocks too.

There's a reason I don't have too many friends. Frankly people aint shit. Lemme splain.

What I have experienced these past couple of weeks really opened my eyes to the nature of humans. I no longer have the means or desire to extend myself to people who once depended on me regularly for support when their shit was real raggedy and fucked up: emotional, financial or otherwise. Of course I haven't received the same courtesy. People treat you like shit when you don't have a job. I'm not pressed to get one either. I'm chillin as is and still paying the bills. If I can work this right, I plan to go to school full time for a year to graduate a lot sooner than I originally planned. Right after I deliver this third and final child, I'll be on my way.

I'm trying to maintain my composure, however, folks is on the last piece of nerve I have left. Once again I have people trying to tell me what's best for me, when they wouldn't have a smidgen of an idea what to do if they were in any of my situations. Help is one thing but unwarrented help is down right annoying. And quite misplaced. Don't offer to help me then help me with shit I don't need help with. Technically, that isn't helping.

I can't live my life to make other people comfortable. I do what I do when I feel like it. That's how it's going to be. What this has taught me is to be careful of the people I chose to over extend my assistance to. It's not likely they'll appreciate it.

26.June.2005    09:42 PM     Commments: 4

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Misplaced advice? Feeling like a stepchild for not being employed? I know how you feel. I wish you the best in whatever endeavor you take. :)

posted by karsh | 06.27.05 03:01 PM


Karsh, if I wasn't confident about what I want to do, these folks would have me feelin all kindsa fucked up. Why can't mfs stand to see you chill? That's exactly where I'm at right now.

posted by Queen Sexy | 06.27.05 10:59 PM


Hey Queen Sexy,

It's been a minute since I stopped by your spot. Congrats on da baby! Glad to hear you are doing well.

Misery loves company girl! I had to learn that the hard way these past couple of months. So much that now I'm trying to rekindle my relationship with my man since my kidness to others blinded me to the truth and in the end I ended up hurting the ONE that has ALWAYS kept it real.

Best of luck to you! I"m sure you'll do great!

posted by Golden | 06.28.05 03:44 AM


Hey Sis',

Just came across your site and wanted to tell you to keep the faith. Im also sitting back waitin' for the CIA to finish my paperwork (havent even gotten to the medical part yet) and been collecting unemployment since April...THINGS DO CHANGE. So just strap in, grit your teeth and bear it, like you said...THE CHANGE WILL COME!

posted by TCommando | 07.14.05 04:42 PM


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