I found it! The last two years have been a creative slump for me. That energy was renewed yesterday. This is the best I've felt in years. I let somebody else's garbage bring me down. This somebody didn't even care a thing about me. Aint that boutta bitch???
nOva's gonna freak the layout to keep the creative juice spurting. I love my nOvie; I feed off his energy. /gushy moment.
It took the birth of my third child for me to obtain the clarity, stregnth and wisdom to move forward to the next phase in my life. Rev. Gigolo (aka BD2) made a statement to me a few years ago that rang truth (prolly the only piece of truth that's ever come out his mouth, YTD) which I remember as: "You must have missed the lesson the first time around. The same things will keep happening if you don't pay attention to the lesson you're supposed to recieve." Now he dropped that lil morsel of knowledge on me before he got all churchy with it. He was absolutely right. I chose to ignore what was in front of me.
Now that I"m on the cusp of spiritual cleansing, I'm more than certain I've been called on to help another woman who is currently in emotional turmoil. The dream I had about her wasn't coincidence; there's something I'm supposed to offer her. I know what it is, but I don't think she'll be receptive. While I am willing to pay my spiritual dues, I don't want to be anywhere near the situation. Not anymore than I have been. It hurts me as a mother and woman to watch her go through this. I find it difficult to stand by and not say anything. I've reached out to her, but she has yet to take my hand.
While it's my stance to leave the door open for her and let her walk in on her own, the Fix It Guy offered a more realistic view. I've been given a task. Whether or not I want to embark on this journey, it's my responsibility to complete this task. I'm very uncertain with how I should proceed. I'll pray over it and let The Spirit guide me to my next move.
0 comment(s) » add yours