After not receiving a merit increase in September, I'm back to job hunting. It's not going very well thus far; I haven't received any call backs. :( That's very disappointing. I know I'm doing everything right. My resume is good and I have good experience. I don't understand why these white folks aint callin me back.
I wonder if these people even know what they're looking for. Ads are full of catch phrases like "self starter, team player and detail oriented" couple with duties such as "manage executive calendars, draft correspondence and other duties as assigned." Real cute. Aaaaaaaaaaaannnnd they want you to have a four year degree to do this piddly shit. Are you serious?
Of course a company wants the best candidate their $35k per year can purchase. Imma need HR to up they game. Please do not post ads with misspellings, bad punctuation and words used out of context. You're not gonna attract and retain the best if you don't present yourself as an organization deserving the best.
The kids Godfather has been away at work for the last four months. He can barely talk about his job since everything is classified. That's really hard for us since we talk about EVERYTHING. I felt really bad; I could hear the distress in his voice. From 11 years of age forward, I've always been by his side to navigate through his life decisions. While he's out in the field strategizing his way through various situations, there's nothing I can do. He's such a sensitive soul, but he can't afford to be with the type of work he has to do. I have so many questions for him when he comes home. Some things are best communicated face to face.
I missed another anniversary last week! Last Thursday marked my 5th year as a homeowner, although I'm not sure how excited I am about that. It's been a tough ride. Maaaaaaaaan, this sumbitch more of a money pit than the kids! There's always so much work to do, inside and out. For the new year, I've decided I'm going to make a list of things I want to improve and complete a different project every month.
Homeownership is typically viewed as majorly beneficial. Um...how? Thus far, it's been a real pain in my ass. If I didn't have children, I wouldn't be concerned with owning a home at all. The bright spot is the kids have a place they feel is theirs.
Now only if they'd clean it...
This time last year, my financial situation was real precarious. I was a contract worker hustling to make the mortgage payment. That was my only concern. Shortly thereafter, my position came permanent and I stopped holding my breath. Contracting is so volatile: you never know when you'll be out of work. Instability irks my nerves.
Now that I've been on this job for about a year, I'm ready to move on. I'm trying to make the best of it but the truth is..I'm no longer interested. Maybe if they hadn't canned my boss in May I'd feel differently. Maybe. Maybe not.
On Thursday I went into my boss' office to let her know I wanted to speak to her about a few things before she left for vacation. She looks at me and says, "I never know when you're gonna come in here and tell me you've found another job." I didn't acknowledge her remark and continued with my purpose. Was she expecting me to deny it? Heh. That's her cross to bear, not mine.
I've worked with her for about four months now. Our sales team will total 17 probably by the end of the year (current total is 9). I'm not interested in being responsible for that many people. And guess what? I didn't get a raise with my annual review, although my work is "very good" and i "write better than most VPs". And that doesn't deserve a reward. I don't get any love for that?
Now I'm being shown it's time to move. After I started in this position, I've always said, "If my raise doesn't look good, I'm looking elsewhere." It's time for me to produce fecal matter or remove my posterior from the chamber pot.
I'm dusting off my resume and applying to different obscure postings. I hate emailing my resume. I much prefer to fax. I've found it to be much easier to get a response that way. I'll be trekking my way back to the staffing agencies real soon. I've noticed companies are starting to use them much more. I'll put them to work for me as well. Somebody out there is gonna pay me $60k. The ads I've seen are offering 28-32k. No thanks. They can keep that.
Also, it's time to review my 101 in 1001 list. Although I've completed about half my list, I'm very excited to make another one. It's been a very good tool to keep me focused on what I want to accomplish. I get so angry with myself sometimes because I know I can do so much more. In all reality, I've already accomplished a lot, moreso than other people in my age group facing similar situations.
What can I say? The grind never stops.« ... now bounce.