The end of the first week of the new year has finally arrived. It's been a tough week for me--trying to keep everything in perspective and whatnot.
I've been feeling frustrated at work for the past few months: not paid enough and do more than my share. I'm constantly doing other people's work but I guess that's the nature of being employed. I try not to make my displeasure apparent. I don't like to worry my teammates. They have enough pressures, although they know when I'm displeased and go out of their way to make me feel better. For these reasons, I love them. Even the rouge that works my nerves. LOL. My work situation isn't the best, but I'm making the best of it.
Lately, I've been coddling an internal battle which I've been consumed with for about two weeks. I chalk it up as part of the growth process, but that doesn't make me feel much better. Last Friday when I was at my peak of discontent, I crossed paths with an old co-worker. She caught my attention right before I was able to get in good with the Nintendo DS. As I'm looking around to figure out who had the kajonies to interrupt me while I'm playing Mario, our eyes locked. Looking into her eyes made me smile. Her eyes are so clear, you can see clear to her soul. I told her about my new boss and how I don't feel we're a good fit for each other. She said to me: "Sometimes things just don't work out. It's not anything you did or what she did. The chemistry isn't there"
The last statement was so simple. So obvious. So true.
I've been placed in this situation for a reason; though I have yet to figure out what that reason is. Maybe it isn't for me to know right now. I can't say I'm patiently waiting to find out either.
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