I wonder...
how they'd react if they knew how I really felt; what really goes through my mind when I look at them.

I wonder...
how it would affect their behavior and self perception.

I wonder...
one day if they'd ever take heed to what I've tried to instill in them; the preparation I'm trying to give them. Preparation for life.

I wonder...
if they ever considered what life would be like without me.

23.March.2010    08:48 PM     Commments: 0

I've been avoiding him over a year. A sweet guy with a big heart, but he's not for me. He had a chance and passed me by for someone more in his gutter while I kept it moving to ascend. Hindsight is 20/20 but you can't rewind past mistakes. If you can't meet me where I stand...you can't meet me at all.

I met up with him yesterday; I knew I would at some point. He met me at the door and I felt..nothing. All the reasons why I didn't want to have anything to do with him were still applicable: the hair, the dark smokers lips, the lack of intelligent conversation, the air of general downtroddenness... I can do without.

I'm glad his life is back in order. He just can't be part of mine.

15.March.2010    12:04 AM     Commments: 0